venting about caring to be seen. :)

I have some thoughts on my mind. I can't wait to meet someone that treats me the way that my expectations say I should be treated. I want someone (friend, family, boyfriend) to read me without me having to use words..... and then fight through my words when I am talking to much.

I was talking to my "nextdoor neighbor" at work today and I was explaining about an interesting phone call that I had this week. I haven't seen a friend of mine in a while. I was disapointed to find out that I would be working when they came back to the beach. I told them... "darn, I was hoping to get to see you." and their response was - "well I don't really need to see you." What? What? I don't care if i hardly know a person, if it is someone that I work with, my housemate, a dear friend, family member, boy or girl... if someone is coming back in town and I tell them that I would love to see them- then they should be honored. Who comes out and says that they don't really need to see another person that obviously cares? I asked my friend, "really?" and they My friend said - "sorry that I can't tell you what you want to hear." ... what did they think i wanted from them that was too much for them to give?

It has been urking me all day. My next door neighbor was totally on my side- he, Lewis, couldn't understand why I was friends or even an aquaintance with someone that would talk to me like that. ugh.. I know lewis is right... but It makes me wonder... did i do something that allowed a person talk to me that way?
(I wanted them to want to see me, too. why were they not even interested in making plans to get together?)

ugh
ok vent over